Surgiversary....

Tomorrow is September 15th.... one year since my sleeve.  How totally amazing the journey has been!

Let's go back...

Being fat plump didn't make me a bad person.  I wasn't a negative Nelly or down on myself.  I could smile and love and do many things happily.  BUT....I was scared.  I was scared I was going to get really sick.  I was scared I wouldn't be able to enjoy life.  I was scared I wouldn't be able to see the people I love grow.

Being scared sucks.  I don't like it.  I don't like knowing that I'm letting something have that much control over me.  I tried all the tricks.  I tried the diets and the pills and the drinks and gym.  Nothing much stuck for long and it certainly didn't change me in any significant way.  I needed help.  I needed a tool that was more than a calorie counter.  I needed to lose 87 lbs.  That is a lot of  butter!

Fortunately I found help.  Those of you that have been with me since the start or have read all the posts understand that it wasn't a magic switch.  My sleeve doesn't do the walking for me.  It doesn't choose my proteins.  What it does do is help me to know my limits.  It guides me to make choices that will work for me.  It tells me "stop it girl or you're gonna get sick".  I've learned a lot this year.  I have more to learn still. For instance, I got my blood work done just before we went on vacation.  It tells the truth.  It said "girl, you haven't been taking your vitamins".  "And now, you are low on B12 and B1.  What are you going to do about that?"

Well, that has made me research what B12 and B1 do....kinda serious things like you know, help with your nervous system and help regenerate the cells in your organs.  So guess what?  I've now learned that I can take my vitamins by mouth without getting sick! I don't like it, but I'd like getting into that kind of trouble a lot less.

So where am I now? (besides a little low on vitamins)
I have lost 92 lbs! That's right! I am 5 lbs below my goal.

 and that's not even the best part...the best part is how much healthier I am overall and the fact that I can now do amazing things I would have been SCARED to do before!

Parasailing has been on my bucket list for many years but there was always an excuse...because I was scared...

Not anymore!!  There it is.  When he asked me how much I weighed I didn't have to think about being embarrassed to say how much.  I didn't worry that I wouldn't fit into the straps.  I just grinned and told him 140 lbs!

My BMI is normal.  I am at a healthy weight.  It's such a simple thing to say.  But for me it was impossible for years.  I am so happy to be given these years back.  Dr. Trieu estimated at least 10 extra.

We are almost out of the honeymoon phase.  I may not continue to lose more.  This was a slow month with just over 2 lb loss.  That's ok.  When I stop losing then we'll move on to maintenance.  It's still unknown, but I don't find that scary.  Where I've already been...that was scary!  After all, I can only do things one day at a time but as time has shown, those little steps...they lead to big changes!!

Thanks for following along!
~Mikki